Ninglors Log 119
June Progress:
9/6
Completed Games:
Quantum Break
Ominous Tales: The Forsaken Isle
Coming Out on Top
Theatre of the Absurd
Won/Gifted Games:
Bought Games:
Played this week:
Quantum Conscience
Quantum Break
24 hours, 42 of 42 achievements, ★★★★☆
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"You can not change the past!"
It's a hard lesson to learn. Even more so, when you have access to a time machine. Man, I wish I could change things and I don't even have that much problems Jack has. Still we are trying, ok? We are trying to fix shit. Even by going back in time. We don't change stuff, bc it already happened and unfolded. But that doesn't mean we are not supposed to be there, right?
Ok, no, let's start at the beginning - fun fact, that exactly how the interview with Jack starts. So we arrive as Jack to help out a friend with an experiment. We totally only learn it's about time travel at that moment. Mind blowing? Yes! But it's getting worse! Not only do we witness our friend traveling into the past - and being there twice -, right after that we have to deal with trained soldiers who try to kill us. To be fair, they don't. They just want to catch us - and probably kill us after that. So we start shooting back ooooonly to learn, that a blowing up time machine gives us super powers! Time super powers! We are basically Doctor Strange - only not. Bc we can't rewind time, only freeze it and move in between it and stuff. So yay to that - also we don't have a cool cloak. Ok, enough about Doctor Strange - never even intended to put this here. Upsi.
We have to make a few choices, alter the present, past and future - to be fair, we don't change the past, BECAUSE IT ALREADY HAPPENED, ok? We can't change it. Period. I guess :]
We loose ppl, we find some we thought we lost - it's like putting stuff aside and so we can find it later on, only… with ppl.
AND I played it twice. Once on normal and once on yep, hard mode. Which turned out to be not THAT hard, if you know how things work out. I did this (not only to become a TIME LORD! \o/) but also to see the differences in choices. Which are mind-blowing! In a way. Bc half way through the second playthrough I was supper annoyed how little difference shit makes. In the end it doesn't really matter what we do, it always unfolds the same way. Having played a few games you can change by making choices, this just felt… lacking in changes. But then. It doesn't! Bc that's what this is about, right? We can time travel, we can try doing it differently, but We. Can't. Change. Shit! It will always turn out the way it's supposed to work out. Only difference: different ppl die. So for them it would definitely be a difference, but hush :D
Did I like it? Yes! I mean, I rly don't play every game twice AND on hard mode. So that was nice. Only thing annoying me: I had trouble getting one Chronon Source the second time and had to redo the scene three times. By then I lost my nicest weapon, bc the game forgot I had it. So I had to struggle on without it… for a bit :D
Recommendation? Yes!
Ominous Tales: The Forsaken Isle
1 hours, no achievements, ☆☆☆☆☆
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I can't even say anything about this! This was just stupid and horrible!
The HOGs and Puzzles were nice enough, but the rest? Nope! And then… it was over. Thankfully. THANKFULLY it was not long!
Recommendation? No!
Coming Out on Top
20 hours, 32 of 32 achievements, ★★★★★
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Oh God, I might just be in love with this game! Honestly! This is sexy, cute, lewd, funny, it's conflicted, lovely, romantic. Did I mention hot as fuck?
AND I JUST LOVE THE INTRO MUSIC! I might have sat an hour just listening and bouncing around to that. Might be. Since there are no witnesses, you'll never know though :P
I just loved Ians route - although he was not the first I went for. But the more part he took in the whole game - he is the roommate - the more I was like: I wanna know you, boy! Gimme more! He's not only adorably cute - and super insecure about… uh, his feels - he is also super on point. Like ALL THE TIME! He just knows what the rich ppl wanna her to love you, what's going on with the poetry guy and his ominous friends, he knows exactly how much you're into your prof - and btw he's every time you take the gay response like: uh, what am I now supposed to say? -, he also had some… insight with the sports and music guy. I'm pretty sure he did *thinking* Anyway! Listen to Ian! Ian knows what he's talking about - only the jousting was not on point. Duh, Ian, way off the point!
Second place is already troublesome, bc I just love Jed - call me… uh, the opposite of racist I guess, bc I'm SO into asian guys… <3 - but Phil was also surprisingly adorable and Alex had me right away. But wait! Even Brad was awesome. Only he's clearly not on second place. I left one out? Yep, I sure did. Amos was really not my cup of tea. Like. Not. One. Bit. From start to end. Not mine. Sorry to say so, but yeah, that's how it is.
On the other hand, I would have loved to have one of the Bro-date guys as romance option. Who that is… I'll not tell. Either you know the game and know me enough to get this instantly, or… yeah, not. His and Ians route I might have played more than once. Possible. <3
And to make things even worse: I've put the games on my favs, totally prepared to play it again. Because I'm just in love with it…
Hidden LEWD rating: Yes, just, yes.
Recommendation? YES! Only… be ino gay guys (and you probably should be old enough or this might… right, be a bit much. I guess. Maybe. Dunno. I probably would have played it as teen and would have loved it. But I'm naughty. So there we go.)
Theatre Of The Absurd
2 hours, no achievements, ★☆☆☆☆
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This started out decent enough - although confusing. Why would apparently claim the cube is fake only to destroy it and with that free a demon. I don't know. I don't get it. Gotta add, we saw the demon in the cube I guess. So yeah, no sense here. After that we try saving the daughter, fending of the demon. Running around in a creepy castle - poor girl having to grow up in a place like that without friends and… all that. Eventually we manage all of it. Aaaaaaaaand, we have loads of questions. Luckily the Collectors Edition it is, so we can hop right onto that one. Sadly… it doesn't work. I had to restart my PC twice - though not with the big bad button - bc the game just wouldn't go on. Wouldn't let me out, wouldn't let me quit it. So yeah, had to restart. Figured twice is enough to stop it. Figured having played the base game, that should work out, right? :D
Recommendation? Not sure if the chrashing is normal, if so… stay away from it!
Cat Story ahead!
Ameno caught his first bird! At least it’s the first I kinda witnessed. So I wanted to be just proud of him. I always assumed he might just be too stupid to do this, but yay, he did it! And then… there is the other side of the whole “catching a bird” thing and I’m conflicted. How can I be proud of a hunter hunting prey? Yeah, I still tried. I also left him alone with it, bc… yeah, not my business. Also I don’t have to think too much about it, if I’m not standing right next to it.
So mostly proud :D
I couldn’t solve the copycat situation. Mostly bc I wasn’t there to see her. Also… I’m conflicted if I rly should do it. For myself, absolutely! But… god, I feel so stupid now! She will have in two months time three massive brain surgeries and she might not recover from this whole thing. And I feel I’m a bad person if I would still talk about this. But then again, it’s about myself. So… uh, yeah. I will talk with her next week. I will make it way smaller and just tell her, I don’t want her to post my stuff and copying it. And try to make it too big. So yeah. Still not in the clear on that front.
But! Something else. I’m being depressed. I had to deal with this since… basically for ever. But since I left school ten years ago my life fell apart. This spring I finally applied a Handicap ID. I received a letter on Thursday – only opened it on Friday – which confirmed my Handicap. Not only that, it’s officially since 2009. Ever since I fell out of school. So this is a major step. I’m anxious and relieved. And I have NO idea what I should do now. And it’s freaking me out and scaring me. But I DID IT!
As stated before:
I’m happy to paint for each and everyone of you. Only fee are the material and shipping costs \o/
If you wanna give me something extra, that’s totally up to you and not expected ;)
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Huh, accordign to Steam records, I did play Ominous Tales: The Forsaken Isle last year, but I have absolutelly no recollection as to what the game was about. It doesn’t look familiar at all O.o I think I’m gonna replay it, see if it rings a bell.
As for the copycat, it sucks that she needs a brain surgery, but that’s no excuse to pretty much “steal” other people’s work and pretend it’s her own. Don’t feel like a bad person just because she happens to have some health condition ;) I hope you’ll be able to sort it out somehow, good luck!
It got zero out of five stars. Just don’t :D
Thank you, I’m trying to look out for my interests \o/
Hugs received! <3
My cat has been catching birds for a while now. She doesn’t eat them or anything. She just likes to kill them and then show it to someone. There was this one time where I wasn’t around and the bird apparently wouldn’t give up because when I got home my room had feathers all over it and a dead bird below my desk. Since them, I’ve been trying to stop her when she does that, even though she gets a bit mad at me. xD
I have no idea what a handicap id is, but I’m glad to hear that you’re relieved. I was also lost after college, the only thing that helped me was finding something I liked and trying to find anything in that area. Since you like arts and crafts, why don’t you try to apply to some art school?
Ha, yeah, he totally wanted to carry the birdie inside and show off. We totally didn’t let him though :]
Oh, it’s for when you’re handicaped in a way (like me having depression and struggling with basically everything in life) you are officially… well, handicaped. Therefore you can get extra stuff, or stuff more easy, and basically you are entiteld to more help and such? Plus a lot of companies (in Germany at least) have to offer a certain amount of work places for handicaped ppl (or they have to pay so they don’t). Like my Ceramiclady would like to offer me a proper job and with me being handcaped the gouverment will support her in offering me a job. Or such. Dunno if that makes sense in any way. Sry hide
Well, I would like too, ofc. I mean, I constantly have brilliant ideas about stuff I could learn and than work. But thinking about it, stresses me out. And putting me in the situation eventually leads to a new break down, so… I just dunno. All a bit difficult :/
I think I understand. We don’t have that around here, but it sounds really good. I’m happy that you’ll be able to get a job with it.
Well, if you would like to try, go one step a time. No need to hurry. First, you enroll, then take a deep breath before your first day, then the second, etc, and if, in the end, it doesn’t work well for you, you can always quit it later. At least, you’ll have tried. :)
Let’s keep our fingers crossed. She first has to figure out, what she has to do, but she would very much like to have me as an employee by october, sooooo I’ll just keep hoping for the best :)
Ah, yeah. That I could do. Atm I’m thinking of enlisting for some sport thingies and see how good that works out. It’s like maybe ten courses. If I can do that, I can do bigger projects, I guess :)
Oh I read the above comment about the handicap id. Around here they are now implementing people with non visible disabilities to start getting handicapped badges and stuff. I talked about it with someone and they made a good point about the bad side of it. Like how it could effect the people with bigger problems. There aren’t many disabled spots and with so many people now with mental problems it feels like it could cause trouble with people who need to be closer because they are in a wheelchair or something but then those spots could be taken by people who don’t need it as much. However the fact they are noting that mental stuff is also bad is a good move at least. Plus yes all that is based on cars since I’ve never seen the type you explain away from a car window
I cant say if we have the other things you mentioned with work and stuff. Ive never heard that from anyone so the only thing I know is that we have people who will help you get back into work but thats as far as that infomantion goes. Best example I can give is in certain cases you can still be paid benefits while having a job but never heard of anyone helping the business support you
Also I totally get the whole thinking about stuff you can do. I always have that with writing. 1 moment I want to write but then I spend to much time that it stresses me out that I’m not doing anything so that causes me to stop but then I start stressing that I’m not writing anymore and its a huge back and forth that repeats a few times a year. Ive gone through so many notebooks of writing but then rewriting to have it neater only to give up and destroy it. I found like 3 brand new notebooks in one of my draws while moving and I just knew if I kept them they would be destroyed not that long after writing in them
Well, ofc handicap is not handicap. We have a percentage for that. The more grave your handicap or situation resulting from it, the higher your percentage. Like I now have 50%, which is already a lot I guess. Coming from 0? Yeah, a lot. But with my mental illness I might not need a special workplace or extra attention or help, bur more a save environment. Well, and also the rest. But ofc, it’s different then if I would be in a wheelchair or couldn’t use an arm or… I dunno. So different handicap, different stuff I need.
The part with the cars I doooon’t get? Unless you’re talking about car parking? thinking
I’m not sure I can explain it properly. My dad once told me that they don’t offer jobs for handicaped ppl, so the company has to pay a penalty to the government for that. They would have to offer a certain amount but instead they pay a fixed sum. On the other hand companies who offer jobs get… well, yeah, support from the government. Ugh, at least that’s what I know about it.
As for me personally: I have to go to the Department for Social Service… and ask what help I can get. And or financial aid. I mean, I could possible even move out this way. Maybe. Let’s just pretend, this is not freaking me out or anything hide
What kinda writing do you do? Bc I’m really into writing - I might even have started a few book attempts, but always stopped bc of super stupid reasons (like I can’t think of names for the characters -.- Or I’m just bored by writing by myself.). My longest solo work was… uh.. about 70 Pages. But let’s face it, it was in the HP universe, so nothing by myself :D
And mostly I write in RPG Forums, sooo, not by myself, which I love \o/
But yeah, too many choices, too much to do, too little certainty to settle on one thing. I mean, the ceramic painting is still working, so yay! happy
Well my writing got less and less as time went. I mainly got into writing when my school started doing competition’s which we were forced into. So during that time I didn’t bother with writing that much but I did try my best to write as good as possible which has resulted in my work being in a couple of books.
It was around the time I was slowly not going into school that I started writing more like proper stories during breaks on the computer. Then when I got put into a school for troubled kids I would writing during the free time since they didnt have the type of lessons I was taking so that was free time
Now as i said it got less and less as time went on. Even now im not really interested in writing for the fun of it but something to distract me. Its kinda hard to explain but writing simple stuff out like walkthroughs for my stories or writing out descriptions of what characters look like took time out of my day. I wasn’t just burning myself out by reading all day but then at certain points I would let it overwhelm me with taking so long that yeah it was an endless cycle of giving up retrying and back and forth.
We didn’t get that much support (or encouragement) at school to get into actual writing. More analyzing shit and writing essays and thinking about what other authors might have meant by stuff they wrote. I mean, bc it’s so super important to know what Goethe meant with his stories, written… a long time ago. Why not encourage doing that one self? I can only really remember two times in all my school times, when we were asked to write something creative for lessons. And only one time was in German, the other one in English for my oral English Abitur class. Which is strange enough, since it was supposedly an oral class, but then again I liked writing so it was the one time I didn’t complain xD
(I also only once entered a competition via school channels. But I guess my writing has been back then already too much niche writing, so nothing came out of it :D)
Yeah, I get that. It can distract, take your mind off of things. And I can also get how it can get too much. Since I almost always write with other ppl I constantly freak out about replying fast enough. And so far I always had a point where that turned into too much stress and I just stopped. Which is a super mean thing to do: Just vanish and never come back. But yeah, this happens sometimes with me hide
But as long as you can still enjoy it sometimes, that’s nice. And even if you can’t make room for it, that’s ok. You still know, it’s there and an option. So if you ever want to do it, you just can. And that’s nice :)
So… for Coming Out on Top, did the condom on/off option change anything in the story??? haha
Well it changes the pics aaaaaand if there is condom mentioned or not. But that’s it. So no.